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| I figured it was about damn time for me to update my journal, no matter how brief an update it is. Here's how things are in the wonderful world of scott.
Relationship is going great...only complaint I have there is not getting to see my beautiful fiancee enough. Not that this is a problem that can be fixed, however, as I am not going to be sated until we are married. All of the time I get with her is great, I just wish that we could start our lives together.
Work sucks per usual. I'm tired of this place and am ready to be done. I'm currently checking into the substitute market in J-ville to see if it would support me or not. If I find out it is fairly thriving, I'll go ahead and head out of this place. Between Jacksonville and Springfield I should be just fine for jobs.
Personal life is not very good right now. My brother's hand seems to be really messed up again and not getting any better. I keep waiting for a miracle, but it doesn't seem to be coming. I'm really not sure how to handle it all but I just keep going along anyway. I considered visiting him in St. Louis yesterday but he told me not to bother and also didn't know if he would be there all day or if he was going home. That kinda sucked but yet again I will deal.
Living with Jaime and Daggett is cool, but now that Daggett is back at the theatre and I'm here at Cingular I doubt I'll see him all that much. I guess there will be that 1 day a week when Daggett doesn't work. Jaime is pretty much always around since Papa John's isn't working him a whole lot yet, but I'm out of the apartment most of the time so I don't see him much either. Wake up, get ready, go to work, come home from work, hang out with Jenni for an hour or two, go to bed, repeat. That's a day in the life of me right now. I suppose things will change sooner or later.
Oh well...enough from me now. I'll talk to you all later whenever I have time and desire. | | |
| I figured I would update a little bit about my personal life. Oh..where do we begin?
Last night I went to the grocery store to get something for dinner and learned an important fact. It is very difficult to find something to eat when you have $1.01 in your checking account. Extremely hard to find good food then. I ended up with a couple of frozen burritos...and I now have 4ยข in my checking account. It worries me just a little bit, but I'll survive until tomorrow morning.
I was talking to Jenni last night on the phone and her brother decided to be a jackass once again and start yelling at her. It aggravates me to no end...especially since there's nothing I can do about it. I realize that brother/sister relationships are different things, but there are times where I really just want to take him and make him learn to respect people. Anyways...that's just the protective side of me coming out, no matter how much I try to suppress it. I learned a difficult fact last night...there's nothing in the world worse than listening to someone you love cry and not be able to do anything about it. Having your heart break for someone else is an incredibly trying action, even though it is rewarding to care that much about someone.
Plans keep going with Jaime moving up...all I have to do is line up the Cingular thing for him so he has a well-paying job. It should be a good time once he gets up here...I hope so at least. It'll be nice to have someone around since I've been pretty much living alone for the last month and it's pretty lonely at times. I hate coming home to an empty house after a day at work and spending the rest of the night alone.
It seems like everyone else's life is much worse than mine right now, and I really feel for all of those people. I'm not sure what I did to deserve this much happiness...where the only problems in my life are centered around work and being away from Jenni. There's no drama, no pain, no dischord...just my own personal pain and annoyance. I wish I could take on a little from some of my friends and ease their pain...but I haven't found a way to do that. I guess that's just life.
On a brighter note...I'm not sure if I reported my McDonald's escapade a couple of weeks ago, but I had some horrible service. Last Saturday I got a personal phone call from the manager apologizing...and then last night I got my free food coupon for the McDonald's up here. It's great to see corporate America actually taking one for once.
And finally, Garrett stopped by and chilled last night which was great. He is the only person I know good enough to just pop in from time to time and hang out, no matter what he has going on. He's pretty much the only one who randomly stops by to make sure I'm still alive.
Well, that's enough for me so I'm off of here for now. I'll check all of my Nerfamaniacs later.
Current mood:  sympathetic.
Current music: Talking.
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24th July, 2003. 10:55 am. I'm sorry...
To all of the people in my life who are having a hard time...I'm sorry.
To those having problems with their parents, friends and family...I'm sorry.
To all of those having trouble sleeping, relaxing or getting any type of rest...I'm sorry.
To those questioning themselves and doubting their self-worth...I'm sorry.
To those who have lost somebody, something or are just feeling lost...I'm sorry.
If you are reading this, you are one of my friends. You may not know it at all times, but you are important to me and to others. Sometimes things get down, as we all know firsthand. I wish I could tell everyone that it will get better, but there's no guarantee of that. I'm sorry. All I know for sure is that if you ever need anyone, I will be there. No matter what time of day or night...no matter what the circumstances are...I will be there if you need me. If I haven't been there yet...I'm sorry. | | |
| It's been so long since I experienced frustration like this. I get done with school finally and don't have to learn at others' pace any more. So what happens? I get to go into a stupid training class where it is worse than high school. You'd think that if we're taking a test that we can use all of our notes, computer, and other resources to answer the questions, we could just be handed the test and start. That would make sense, right? Guess what...not going to happen. What we have instead is about a fucking hour of review while we go over every little thing on the test that we are going to answer with our notes. And if we know this stupid stuff and don't need to study? What then? We get to sit and be quiet and listen because we can't have an intelligent conversation. No, not here. Not while we're being "trained". I can have all of my fucking time wasted with training, but if I try to have a private conversation it's too much of a distraction. Stupid stories about the trainer's childhood...acceptable. My discussion of literature with someone else in the class...distraction. Makes perfect sense to me.
I hate this place. People keep saying "wait until you get on the phones" as if it could get worse. It can't. Give me 100 annoying customers so long as I can do things for myself at my own pace. I can't stand moving at the speed of stupid any more. I cannot stand spending 2 hours to do 10 minutes of work. I cannot take this any more. I really just want to quit...and I still have another 5 days of this stupid training crap. I'm not sure how long I can contain myself, but if things don't get better soon I am going to have to snap on somebody.
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| Instead of just sitting on here and complaining all day, I decided I'd be productive and start writing again. In the next couple of days I'll have a new installment in the adventures of Adam and Harry for everyone to read on here. If you all are too anxious to wait, I'll give you a little preview...this adventure chronicles the battle of Adam and Harry against the Ice Cream Man. It should be a thriller if ever there was one.
I was almost feeling sorry for minor at lunch as 8 people from our training class sat together and she sat all alone. Almost felt sorry. In the end, self-preservation won out and she continued sitting by herself while no one had to hear stories about Taylorville. The utilitarian in me recognizes it as a winning situation...8 people were happy and only 1 was unhappy. It was for the greater good.
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| 23rd July, 2003. 11:19 am. 9 days...
Today we are on day 9 of this seating arrangement. Day 9 of sitting next to kitten and right in front of minor. A foot away from the self-important, pompous prick who thinks he has all of the answers. And a couple of feet away from the girl that smart forgot. The girl that no one wants to listen to, and very few will actually say that to. And within the same room as buddha's current incarnation, full of 60 year old sexual harassment, belly rubbing and answering every question because he's God's gift to women and any problem, too. Or I guess it would be Buddha's gift. He knows all...just wait for him to rub his belly and you too can have the answers.
I watched a couple of good movies last night so I'll give a quick recap. I watched Red Dragon, which was surprisingly good considering how quickly they got it made. It certainly deserves to be mentioned with the other two in the series, Silence of the Lambs and Hannibal. I've read the last 2 books in the series, I really should pick up Red Dragon and read it.
The other movie I watched was called "But I'm a Cheerleader". It was a fairly independant comedy about a cheerleader whose parents realized she was gay. They sent her to a camp to be "reprogrammed" and there she ended up meeting and falling for a girl. It was a great comedy that made fun of all of the small-minded people in the world. There was even an appearance by Richard Moll...Bull from Night Court. A very amusing movie...and if any of my high speed internet friends want it let me know and I'll send it your way. Or you can come on over and watch.
It's 11:25 so I guess I have another 30 minutes to type before we start for the day.
Kitten's talking again, and when our trainer was telling him what to do he was like "That's what I recommended". As if was out there taking calls or something, and not just sitting listening to someone else. What an idiot.
I can't believe how much I dislike some of the people here...although that isn't that surprising. I think Papa John's is the first time I haven't really hated people at work. There was a time at Papa John's where I hated a couple of people, but they didn't last for long. This place seems especially full of stupid people I can't stand.
I hate spending all of my time complaining about work, so I'm out for now. I'll stop for now and hit you all back at a later time.
Current mood:  tired.
Current music: Q strange still.
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23rd July, 2003. 11:17 am. Today's amusing dailyconfession
"I am 24 and I have two boys, one is 3, the other almost 1. My dad is a grandpa. My mom is expecting.
The worse part, is that my oldest informed me that while he was spending the night at his grandparent's, he was scared by something he heard and when he tried to go to them to be comforted, he heard the same sound coming from their bedroom and got more scared.
I had to pick up my son at 2:00 in the morning because my dad's still got it going on." | | |
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